Today, I attended regular meeting of this cafe… and read comments of SBS show watchers…
I resent and got upset to see that I have more haters than before.
Frankly, it is my fault that I don’t look good on screen…
Really, I don’t look like ★Yu-Jin★ (of S.E.S.)…
I don’t know why people say that I resemble her.
And,
‘She is like a beggar’
‘She makes me off’
‘She is offending’
‘She’s been selected because she is poor and pitiful’
I really hate those comments!!
Especially, when I see comments of ’She is fast to cry’, ‘She is pitiful’, ‘She is beggar’,
I wish I would rush to the commentators and ask why…
Steadily, I bear and forbear while reading the replies.
Nevertheless, I feel good that there are people cherishing me…^^
I don’t want my mother to be mentioned.. I know this kind of situation…
But, how can I keep silent to the questions… So I did answer..
I don’t wanna cry.
But, whenever I hear mother, grandma or father, I automatically shed tears… Why?
Strange… Really~ I won’t cry from now!!
And I heard the show’s rating has dropped.. I feel guilty for that.
I feel this kind when I get angry… To what extent, should I be modest!
Is it to blame that I expected I couldn’t get over 90 points for singing and 80 for dancing?
It is so stifling!! Sigh~
And, I had a boy friend named Kim Byeong Hoo but I decided to break up.
There’s no reason for that^^;;;; That is my frank admission~
From now, I will speak out everything
While hand writing, I couldn’t write much because I get sore but, computer,
it is so good that I can write much while typing a keyboard.
From now on, I will print with computer and post
Nobody knows what I think…!
Nobody knows this feeling of mine! What I feel is the strange feeling!
It is strange that I have that kind of capability, which I didn’t recognize,
that around 90% of accuracy I can guess on things I will experience!
It’s so strange. Sometimes I can see the future of this kid and that man….
I am scared…^^;;;;;
Chilling~~~^^;
Hi hi~^^;
What will I be???? I can’t see it and wish to know…
My haters will say that I am doing a show alone…
I know it all too well but I feel easier after I spoke everything out ^^ He he he ~
I am worried about my future~
Yesterday, I practiced the basic motions of Soul dance
and I can feel my stomach muscles lump…
It should recover fast….
And, contrary to somebody’s saying I don’t have lot of cheek fat..
Rather my thighs and bottom have got some fat…
I have weak stomach and intestines~ very weak…
So my stomach always aches.
In addition, my head aches often… My legs are weak so I can’t run fast.
However, my father was an athlete and I ran fast until the third grade.
I got weaken a lot after I neglected the foot ligament sprain … On, I regret that^^
My father gives a highest value on studying and still doesn’t want me to be a singer.
He just let me do it since I like it. I don’t know what he really thinks.
My father wants me to be a judge or prosecutor. I hate to study the law!!!
Dream is nothing somebody orders to me!! I will be a great singer no matter what they say!!!!
So, I will be famous to spread my name “Min SunYe” worldwide.
It is such a stout dream, but I am at the start line for long journey right now!!
Now is the time only the endeavor is needed!!
I will learn anything hard and will achieve my dream at any cost….*^^*
End of today’s diary!!..^^
original: 투명천사민선예 cafe / trans: bc and Min89er wordpress
